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An emo post. Don’t have to read it if you are not interested. Hahaha :D

It’s been awhile since I last updated my previous post. My life is just like a roller coaster these days. My friends might know me. Some of them draw me a graph that is fluctuated. Okay, I know that I was so emotional these days.

For the first two months I came here, I could laugh every day. I smiled at the people I meet. But in the end, whenever I have a moment to myself, no matter where am I, I reminded that I am alone. I don’t have friends like secondary school-mates. I miss those days with them. I don’t have friends that bring me out for ice-cream when I am down, I don’t have friends who will chat with me like a crazy, I don’t have any more vain pictures after I came to here. I was unhappy that I’m stuck in the jungle with no entertainment every night. And I miss that island the most. Although it’s just a small little island, that just a few minutes could reach the destination, I miss those people who can always cheer me up. I’m facing my baby laptop every night plus up those stupid notes. I was repeating the same thing every day. How can I survive here for the other 3 years? Omg. The weather is like dot dot dot. Dear Rain God, stop raining please! I'm phobia to delivery food.

They call this homesick. I admitted this. I didn’t meet up my parents, my babe, my sampat friends for one month plus. Do they miss me?

It makes me so doubtful. Why the fuck am I here? That’s my fault, I think so? Half year ago, I choose to here no matter how Mommy asks me persuades me not to come here alone. I'm always the bad girl who didn't listen to Mommy. How stubborn am I. Even these days babe starts complaining that, he had asked to stop being that. I know that I’m like a kid when I’m with you. I’m childish and I know it. Sorry, letting you so headache with my temper these days. Will you forgive me?

Well, congratulations to those new couples. Many friends of me from single turn into a relationship these few months. *Like a rocket*  When will I meet a bunch of people who I could spend every day with without getting bored.

I assumed I would never be left alone. But truth is, I left in hope of a better life. But life is never good when you want it to be. Well, I’m going to be 19 soon, sad and lonely. This is the last year to be a ‘lala’ teenager. Start making my dreams come true.

Okay, I really have to stop playing emo songs. It’s making me sad.

Yo, Saturday night rocks! Hello Night Kampar, Hello Rain God. Damn.

No matter how strong you are, you'll end up thinking back everything you once did, gave up on and avoided. I think I’m mentally stuck. lol. If I can’t survive now, I don’t know how I’m going to survive any much longer. Jiayou, wenqi : )

Good Night world : )

As we grow up, I realized that it become less important to have many friends but more important to have a real ones. – Retweeted –